In my HubPages article which features the poem, Nightmare of You, I explore what it was like to have unhealthily obsessed over what could and should have been after a breakup. Since having established my website and other blogs on social media, I’ve posted similar articles about what it was like to have ruminated over past relationships and mistakes.
In time, I’ve learned to forgive myself and accept my imperfections. For instance, I no longer obsess over my appearance as when I was 19 years old. In ten years, a lot can change, even if gradually. While I can be stubborn at times, I never berate myself or others over honest mistakes and do my best to treat those around me with respect and compassion.
However, I still (quite irrationally) fear that my past will one day haunt me. I loathe the thought of others viewing me as the person I was and not as the person I am today. I know I think too much about this because we all change. Still, Nightmare of You entertains these ruminations.
I used the following quote in my article.
- In “A Pair of Blue Eyes,” Brandon Reilly of the band, Nightmare of You, sings:
- “Oh, what a pair of eyes! Sadder than blue. Richer than blood. Deeper than truth. I cursed. I prayed. I prayed, and then I cursed some more.”