Just another silly author who publishes deeply personal literature regarding mental health and the human condition

When I Hate Myself

When I Hate Myself

To no longer mask the pain

When I Hate Myself

the urge to cut
even 15 years later,
anxiously persists.

desperate in those moments:
I sob and moan. I plead with God.
for oh – how sometimes I wish

that with no repercussions,
I could be the puppet
of what I resist

About When I Hate Myself

This poem is for those who still struggle with thoughts of self-harm, regardless of age or however long it’s been since having given into such thoughts.

I understand too well that the mind goes places when a person is experiencing great mental anguish. Though I’ve been doing quite well lately, this is my way to express and purge those thoughts.

Also, I can relate to the sentiment that cutting is like an addiction. For me, the desire to hurt myself has never gone away completely.

Nonetheless, I refuse to upset my loved ones by living destructively. I love myself and my body more than I ever have.

Justus Reinhardt

Justus Reinhardt enjoys writing articles, comics, poetry and prose stories. Through his compositions, Justus' goal is to help others by providing awareness to misunderstood topics.

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