In my related HubPages article, which features the poem, Transformed and Vulnerable, I discuss what it’s like to take life one day at a time. I’m undiagnosed but have realized that I have a binge-eating disorder. My eating habits have negatively affected my life for many years.
In time, my obsessive-compulsive disorder also seems to have gotten worse. For example, my habits are disruptive and have affected the way I write and organize. Throughout the years, the way I walk has even changed. I toe walk while carefully avoiding cracks, tiles and objects on the ground that may be moved, like mats.
Lately, I’ve put some thought into how I can change many of these habits. Mindfulness and remaining calm even when I am distressed are important if I wish to ultimately change my lifestyle. No change will happen immediately, however. Like many others, I’ve waited to feel motivated only to never take action. Instead, I must simply act and in doing so, motivation will come naturally.
I’ve used the following quote in my article:
- In “Pull the Thorns From Your Heart,” James Nielsen of the band, Senses Fail, sings:
- “Devastated by shame; I was so entrenched in pain. I found that hell is the absence of loving self.”